Collab with the fabulous {le bouton de rose} !!
I know it's long. Try to read the whole thing ;)
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(*while walking on the beach)
Ever since I heard about what are we going to do tonight, the little talent show, I was nervous.
Beatá Krall was not a nervous person. She was always calm and patient. Okay, she wasn't a patient person either. But she was strong. Stronger then most of the people thought she was.
I was thinking which talent of mine should I show tonight. What should I do to impress those people?
Sing. I'll sing. But which song? Adele songs are too hard. Gaga's songs are too complicated. It should be something I know. Oh, wait. I know a perfect song...
(*at the talent show)
I was nervous. Again. I was shaking. My whole body was an earthquake.
Calm down. Calm down, you stupid girl. Just calm the f.ucking down already.
It was quite cold tonight and I forgot to take a jacket with me. So I was starting to shiver as well. Oh, dammit!
We were all sitting on the beach, right in front of the little wooden stage. The moon was very shiny tonight. I tried to just look at it, thinking how it will calm me. No, no help from the moon.
The others were pretty good with their talents, I have to admmit that. Some of them had weird talents. Some of them was really an enjoyment to watch. When little Mina was done, it seemed like it was my turn on the stage. My stomach clenched. Shit. I usually didn't have such a big problem with singing in public, but these people, these cameras were killing me right now.
I took a deep breath and climbed to the stage. I tried to smile.
I am not nervous. I'm calm. I am not nervous. I'm calm...
''So, my dear people...''I started to say, but I stoped when I saw a light coming from the main house. I thought that we were all here. Who could be in the house now?
I pushed the thought in the back of my head and finished what I was going to say:
''Um, yeah. I'll sing a song that was once upon a time written by my boyfriend for me. He died in a car accident two years ago. Um, so, yeah...here it goes...
I started to sing. My voice was slightly shaking. I was hoping that no one will notice.
''The wind in her hair, her smile which is always there...''
And then it happened. My body exploded.
I feel to the ground and threw up probably the whole freaking dinner I ate before this.
I heard people scream. They were saying something like:
''Ohmygod, ohmygod!''
''Disgusting thing ever!''
''Jeez, Beatá!''
''Gross.''
I looked up. I couldn't bear the looks on their faces.
Tears started to spill from my eyes. The cameras. The laughter. I had to ran away.
I quickly got down from the stage and ran the fastest I could toward the house. The tears were filling my eyes, so couldn't see straight.
I didn't care. I just ran.
I sprinted to the bathroom. I didn't even notice that the light was on. I simply fell to the ground and started to weep.
And then I heard a voice.
''Beatá? What the hell?'' It was a very familiar voice with a slight french accent. Fleur.
''Beatá, why are you crying? What happened?'' she asked me. I didn't answer.
''Beatá?'' she tried again.
''What? Leave me alone!'' I shouted.
''What happened?''
''I just ruined my own life. That's what happened.'' My voice was still shaking.
''And how did you do that? Wait, is that vommit on your dress? Oh my god. Did you just vommited or something?'' she asked me again.
I removed the hands from my face and looked at her. I knew that I was looking like a disaster. My make up was ruined. My dress was ruined. My life too.
''Yes. I threw up. On the stage. In front of everyone!''
I answered. She was just staring at me. Then she said:
''S.hit happens. So what? Get over it. It' life.''
She gave me a tissue. And another one. And another one.
''It's okay for you to say that. It didn't happened to you.'' I told her.
''You're right Beatá. It didn't, but-''
I interrupted her.
''Now they're going to remember me as the girl who vommited. They'll call me the vommit girl. On, no! I don't want them to call me like that!''
And I started to cry. Again.
''Listen to me. No one will call you like that. I promise. Except meybe me. And stop crying! It won't do you no good.'' She gave me another tissue.
''Come on! Raise your pretty head. You don't care what they think. You're the one who matters. Cheer up.''
She got up to leave, so I quickly said:
''Fleur, how come you're so nice to me? I thought you hated me.''
She turned around and gave me an evil half smile.
''Oh, Beatá. I still hate you. But... you and I are alike. Of course you're a complete crazy b.itch and I simply like to say what I have on my mind, but yes.
That's the way it is.''
Then she left. I smiled. A complete crazy b.itch. Right.